Weird place

I'm in a weird place right now. In terms of my feelings. (yes, I'm going to talk about my feelings. Rare... but it does happen) The fact that spring break is under 2 weeks away which means the semester is almost half over which means I'm almost graduating and leaving behind a world that I spent the last 4 years building.... is intense. And it seems like every few weeks I have a different set of emotions on how I feel about it. Sometimes excited. Sometimes nervous. Sometimes confused. As of late I think I have been feeling sad yet understanding with a splash of hopeful.

Now I know I said I was going to talk about my feelings but really, I think a song montage would do the job so much better. Here is a video list of songs that I have been listening to non-stop the past 2 weeks because they express how I feel on the inside in one way or another.

Stay tuned - my emotions change at the drop of a hat these days so I'm sure in a week or two I will have a whole new set of emotions/songs swirling around inside me!

I have a dream

... to be on the Amazing Race. I have had this dream for years and years and years. But you have to be 21 to be on the show. I remember when I was youngin' I didn't think the show would be on on anymore by the time I was 21 BUUUUUT here I am 21 and here they are holding open casting calls for the show in Topeka!!

http://www.wibw.com/blogs/mytv/82603032.html

Luckily, my friend Sarah and I have been prepping for this day (just in case) and made an application video this summer. The video is ready to go, the application is being filled out and on Monday she will submit the video and application at the casting call.

I may have found what I'm doing with myself after graduation... Amazing Race Season 17 here I come!!!

Live from the Ladies Den

Where have I been?!

That's a good question.

And I wish I knew.
Really, I've been living the dream. School has taken a backseat for me this semester and it is fabulous :) Although, I have been devoting much more time to my internship... which is probably for the best.

I really have nothing to say. I have been terribly uninspired for weeks now. So, my backup plan is to post an email I received from my grandpa mere minutes after the K-State game ended this evening.

Subject Line: beardaphobia
"great win for the cats tonite in waco. the baylor bears definitely shoulda feared that beard. pullen was awesome. the martini men are back in the thick of things.
go kels! -Pa"

The martini men? I love it.

Sleep?

In all of the stress of last week and this week, it is difficult to lay down at night and relax enough to fall asleep.

So, I have developed a routine the last few nights that allows me to relax, breathe easy, and drift to sleep.

I listen to this. Works every time.

If there was one person I would want to sing me lullabies, it's Ingrid.

Thank you for this song, Ingrid.

15 hours

That's how long I've been in Manhattan for since returning from Thanksgiving break (Which I spent in Texas and it was great, btw)

Here is a breakdown of how these 15 hours have been spent:
5 sleeping
6 working with 2 different groups on group projects that are looming.
2 working on individual homework
2 unpacking/showering/reading
= 15 hours total.

Break is over and school is back. And I am in ultimate crunch mode. I will be spending all of my time working on school. So, if you are too then feel free to join me!

On a good note though: I have rediscovered reese's sticks. Does anyone remember these?? They are delicious. I totally forgot they existed until I won some playing white elephant bingo with my family.
Yes, we play white elephant bingo. And yes, I won candy, potholders and a knife set.

Good things in my life

1.) Christmas: For the first time since I was in grade school, I have made a Christmas wish list. I was supposed to be studying but found it to be overrated so I made a really cool wish list on the computer (that includes clipart… and word art!).

2.) Laptops: My new favorite thing is checking out laptops at the library. It makes me feel cool (kewl) and like a real college student. Plus I feel free to do whatever I want on it; unlike the library desktops where people judge you if you aren’t doing real work on them 100% of the time.

3.) Usher: I am re-in love with Usher. Good songs. Great dance moves. Plus he is HOTT. He reminds me of a black Matthew Mcconaughey… he always manages to take his shirt off. Even when it’s totally unnecessary. But if my abs looked like his, I don’t think I would wear a shirt either.

4.) Home cooked food: Tricia and I dine with the A.D. on Thursday. Hopefully I don’t spill something on me. He is making us steak. I’m also really hoping there are potatoes with it!And corn. And bread.

5.) Let’s go to Colorado this weekend.